Pressure...

 Yeah... That's a sign it should appear everytime you're about to handle pressure... So at least you can prepare and protect yourself..

Why is it so hard?

Going through the day, where you want something but in order to achieve that, there's still a lot to go through...

And then to make it worse people around you just don't get the complexity of it.


They just pressure you to do it... They talk about it, discuss on it, throw you up and down and make you feel sick because of it.
So it gets to the point where you just wish to be left alone... That that subject wouldn't be constantly in the back of your mind, constantly bugging you, destroying friendships, relationships, deteriorating yourself... Making you want to just give up.

I don't want to give up. I have to fight my fears and insicurities and do something for someone that I just want them to do the same back for me... But yesterday I saw that it will always be the same...
I   give  ,   expecting   something   back   ,   and   what   do   I   get   ?   NOTHING...