Miles to Go...

Sometimes sadness overcomes you.
                                          And then you wonder...

What am I going to do with my life?


How can I overcome this sadness?


What's left for me?


What am I meant to do?...

All those questions  and a lot more of them are called

INSECURITIES...

Yes... something that always walks beside us... And with insecurites come fears, and a little someone (very special) taught me that fear will always be there. That they are a part of you.

And I think you can't overcome your fears and insecurities, but you can certainly embrace them...

But that is so hard! You say... Well no one said it was easy. Life isn't easy... But here we are, some of us living it some of us just existing.


Some time ago I was seriously ready to give up... I hadn't any strenght left in me. I was drained, of happiness, comfort, laughter and I was sick and tired of trying to please people so they would freaking accept me. And you know what?

 

  After meeting someone very special, that changed my entire life actually, I just saw that I was loosing myself, not because other people didn't love me or cared about me, I was loosing myself because I didn't believe in me, I didn't care about me. I didn't love myself.

So Thank you that someone special, You really changed my life... In so many ways... [in a not lesbian way xP]





You know how people say that you should always put yourself first and the people you love?
Yeah I never followed it that much. Not because I didn't love people but because I didn't love myself.
Before I could never love and accept who I was. For me I was just someone existing. There wasn't any reason for me to be there.




And then the light came. Shining at its full, bringing me to life. 


Yes life is hard and you have a long way to go...

But you shouldn't shield yourself with loneliness, fears and insecurites. But you Should Surround yourself with happiness and people that are important to you, who truly care about you.

They will help you along the way, they will help you get up if you tumble down.



Don't wonder just do it...




Take a leap of faith
 [yeah I know I should follow my own advice...]