Wants

Seriously... it wasn't supposed to be like this. I wasn't supposed to be hurting. I just wanted one thing, one single thing to work out on my life, one thing to be happy about. And now I have nothing. Oh what is this?! What kind of life is this? Why can't things ever be good for me? And if they are good they last so little.

I don't know what to believe anymore. I feel so lost. I just wish things turned to a better tune. Things got okay. I can't take this... It's just too much of a suffering.

I've been considering suicide for a while now. Everything it's just so hard, so hurtful, so painful, sometimes... I think maybe daying would make it stop. I can't take this anymore. I try, and try and try. And all I get is punched in the face.



I really, really don't know what to do... Not anymore.

Seriously I just wish it would stop hurting this much...